I was hit hard by some more reality this weekend. I have taken awhile to think about things. I am very upset with the situation that I am in. Obviously, I am the one who is going to have to get us out of it. My husband is looking for another job, but, in the meantime he is talking about going back to school for physical therapy. I know that I am supposed to support my husband in his adventures, but I honestly don't see this happening very well. My husband is not the "sharpest crayon in the box". I am not trying to put him down. I just don't see him doing very well and being happy with his decision.
My other issue is the fact that i would like to at least keep what we have. You know the essentials. The roof over my head, my van and heck, my cell phone is essential too. so is having the Internet at this point. I need that to make some extra cash, and I plan on starting online school myself in the next few weeks.
Anyhow, I get upset knowing that I can' get my children things that they are"wanting" for. Then I happen to look at what they do have and it is all taken for granted. Especially by Nanners. It must be the teen thing, I need to do and get her everything that she requests or she is very foul. Well, this is going to stop. She needs to earn her own things so she will be more responsible with the, she does purchase her own books and makes sure those are well taken care of..now she needs to move on to other things.
so we will be living in a basic house for awhile. Christmas will be small. I want my kids to realize what they have without having much. Wish me luck and give me any idea you may have over the next few weeks. It may help me help my kids come to grips with what they "need" and what they "want".