I feel like throwing in the towel. It's only 1:30 and I have already had a pretty crappy day. My hubby's unemployment check didn't come. I don't have all the rent money. Satellite company put hold on my checking account and now its overdrawn and they claim they can't do anything. Fidget's preschool bus was not running today, it was self transport, they called after I woke her and I couldn't take her. Didn't want to wake minnie me up to do that. I just feel like not doing absolutely anything. Oh hubbys work that he worked at for 4 days was supposed to pay him today. I don't have that either. I am just going to sulk and cry because at this moment If eel I deserve it.
I am the glue that holds this family together...I find every one's missing things or know right where they are even though I know I didn't have them. Why am I to remember all that? I am the one who washes every ones clothes when they need them. I am the one who goes searching in teenage daughters room for clothes at the last minute that you had told her to hang up a week ago. I budget the family household income. I plan the schedules. I play taxi and secretary. I deserve to cry when no one else is there to pick me up when i fall.
Sorry if this is depressing...I just needed to vent.
Oh and Have a Happy Thanksgivign Day tomorrow!

I was hit hard by some more reality this weekend. I have taken awhile to think about things. I am very upset with the situation that I am in. Obviously, I am the one who is going to have to get us out of it. My husband is looking for another job, but, in the meantime he is talking about going back to school for physical therapy. I know that I am supposed to support my husband in his adventures, but I honestly don't see this happening very well. My husband is not the "sharpest crayon in the box". I am not trying to put him down. I just don't see him doing very well and being happy with his decision.
My other issue is the fact that i would like to at least keep what we have. You know the essentials. The roof over my head, my van and heck, my cell phone is essential too. so is having the Internet at this point. I need that to make some extra cash, and I plan on starting online school myself in the next few weeks.
Anyhow, I get upset knowing that I can' get my children things that they are"wanting" for. Then I happen to look at what they do have and it is all taken for granted. Especially by Nanners. It must be the teen thing, I need to do and get her everything that she requests or she is very foul. Well, this is going to stop. She needs to earn her own things so she will be more responsible with the, she does purchase her own books and makes sure those are well taken care of..now she needs to move on to other things.
so we will be living in a basic house for awhile. Christmas will be small. I want my kids to realize what they have without having much. Wish me luck and give me any idea you may have over the next few weeks. It may help me help my kids come to grips with what they "need" and what they "want".

I know it once again has been awhile. I was going to have a great post this morning..now I am not so sure. My hubby has been laid off since March. It has been real nitty gritty here. so to speak. well things were looking really good as of 2 days ago. My hubby had an interview on Monday and started the job on Tuesday. Yeah!! I was so excited. Nanners was finally in a good mood too! She thought this would finally mean she could get out of the house and do some things. and it did. Unfortunately this excitement only lasted 4 days and 40 hours of work. The hubby called in to work this morning to find out about a car that needed parts and wasn't sure if they had come in yet or not. Well the phone call was a bad one. I guess their former employee who was out because of an injury was not happy that he was replaced and asked for his job back, they gave him his job back and now once again my hubby is with out a job! I am really beginning to lose hope in the world and in anything that we do.
Also this week I was stuck home with 3 sick kids while I was sick myself. Just in case you haven't had this experience...don't. I never want to have this or be with them like that again. I had bronchitis, Nanners had it too, and Mudd princess and so did Fidget!! It was so much fun, especially since I had to let the TV go because I could not pay that bill. Thanks though to our 2 DVD players and the movies we had. We watched a lot of them. All of us are feeling better now though, except little Minnie Me got sick tonight and is running a fever of 103. My poor baby! I am going to go to bed now, because I am sure I will be up with her in a little while taking care of her.
Just want to say thanks for letting me vent tonight!